I've come full Circle/LTA & MLC 9

[kat727]

Right now I take them as I get them. Just be happy that I see what is really important. My kids are the most important thing. I want them to get through this okay. By helping them and even offering advice on other threads I do get to help myself. I have been trying to make some time for myself each week.

I think once this is done, I won't have so much anxiety. Is it today, this week? When will the axe fall? I tell you it is no way to live. You all know I would have preferred that my marriage would have been revived( and I'm not counting out the possiblity in the future) but I don't see it happening.

H sends me TM on a regular basis but I don't answer many of them. It is too painful to act like this doesn't kill me inside, to act as if everything is fine.

I will be fine someday, just not now.

kat