Losing, in a curious way, is winning.

[Bridgestone]

Good morning all,
Another drizzly day here after a week-end of more rain, more rain, and oh yeah and then more rain.

I have been sitting here since 5:15am, writing my new thread intro (I locked a thread or SC locked it for me, couldn't have asked for a better way to go out!!).

I've been trying to think of what to write for my 1st posting after my intro..

How to recap the past 5 days... not sure I can effectively, but I'll try.

5 days ago- C for communication, big blow up after getting back. Told H. I would not play his 'games'.

4 days ago- Went dark, minimal contact only for the kids, GAL

3 days ago- GAL continued, told H. I can't control his choices, & he has to live with the consequences. He talked, I listened (nothing new there) but SC's bubble analogy made all the difference for me. Forgave H for his lies from 5 days ago, asked him to quit pushing me and this tenuous R back to a M before it is ready. He agreed.

2 days ago- GAL continued, H & I went out for a drive, commiserated about some friends actions which excluded the both of us. Took other friends up on their offer of supper & went to a concert we had been planning for several weeks.

Yesterday- Invited H to my place for lunch, worked on MC homework together, he went back to work, stopped back for ice cream with D after supper. We talked plans for a family vacation to DC. I'm anxious about that, asked him about getting 2 hotel rooms, he didn't see why.. ugg.

D has babysitting clinic all week this week, hopefully will give me some time to get things done for school.

Thanks to those of you who have sent your support via here and through other means. It has been more helpful than you know.

Distressed.. the books should be here today and am looking forward to reading them.

Lodo- lots of thoughts, hesitant to act, still "watching & waiting"

SC- Your bubble analogy was shared with H and he told me he could live with bubbles but not with walls. I liked where he took it and it has given us a common understanding now of that 'emotional separateness' that we needed to be healthy. Thank you

Kalni- It's nice to know someone is reading and thinking of me, as I do you in yours.

Forrest- The conflict cycle seems to fit. She does not feel loved, so she does not give respect. He does not feel respected, so he does not give love. Am still working on how to break that cycle. thanks for all your insights and support, despite our different polarities, possibly resulting in poor solubility, I'm willing to learn.

Peace
Bridge