Lissie,
I have so often read your posts and you are so much the personality that I was before all of this.

I was bubbley with a positive outlook and used to make people laugh.

I come from an abusive house (my mother) then my marriage falls apart, and now my job.

I'm so tired of being strong.

I want to coast in life for a while.

I will take the positive steps for ME

While reading your post,I cried.

I want to get past the pain without feeling it.

I have been at this since last Jan yet all of the anniversaries are so fresh.

hugs, Lissie

I will push ahead

"Sometimes in the winds of change, we find our true direction"

Being the calmness in the storm......