Just read over your past couple of days. Nothing here is out of the ordinary. But then again, I have seen pretty much everything.
You mentioned detached. Detachment comes and goes. You have good days and bad days. You move forward. You fall back. The key is to keep trying to be the best you can. You will screw up from time to time. When you feel a screw up coming on, try to catch yourself. It is a process of healing you are going through and that is how it should be,
And if you need to see someone get their butt kicked, watch Miller's Crossing.
