Twerpled on the Head with a Magic Kumquat

[girlfromipanema]

Damn. I thought CA was only had 3 month waiting period. I'm just ready to get this wrapped up. I'm ready to move on. I have been stuck for so damn long. I had lunch with a friend - one I confided to about concerns I had with my h and OW when my gut started telling me something wasn't right. It was May 2006. He remembered because of a specific event that triggered me to say something. That's how long I've been dealing with this rock of pain in my stomach. I don't think it's in my best interest to focus any more of my energy in thinking about the marriage I had. Time to focus solely on me for now.

I'm incredibly grateful for this experience and I'm incredibly grateful for the time I shared with my husband. I sent him a text a few hours ago:

"I want to thank u for helping me grow over the years. Being your wife made me want to be a better person. As much as my heart hurts now I will always deeply care for and admire the incredible man u are. I hope one day we can rebuild a friendship. Please accept my sincere apology and gratitude. Love, R"

No response from him. Oh well. I feel really good about myself. I'm proud to have made it my mission to save my marriage. Although I didn't succeed, I'm still a winner.