Thanks. It's just getting harder and harder to keep the faith. She has a myspace webpage that she posts pictures to all the time, although she keeps her profile private.
A few days ago, she posted a pic of herself, our son, and some other guy. Today, she changed it to a pic of herself in a bikini with out son sleeping on her lap.
I think its plain she's trying to send me a message, and the message is "Move on already...I have."
I cannot help how I feel though. She is my wife. We were together for 13 years (married for 6) when she left. I can't just get over her like that. She's a part of who and what I am.
The ONLY good point is that she still has not gotten her wedding dress, computer, etc from my house. She has been working a LOT of overtime lately though...and I smell a rat.
Something is up, and I hate not knowing what is going on. I just wish I could get in her head and know what the hell she's thinking...if we have any chance at all or not, you know?
My life is on hold, I cry on almost a daily basis over her, and I dont know what else to do.
I only contact her when I have to, or to talk to our son on the phone. I want to tell her SO badly that I love her and that I'm sorry, but in my gut, I know it would be a bad idea..because I know what she would say. She would say "I dont love you anymore and I wish you would see this."
Sometimes, I feel like I'm doing all of this in vain..that the only thing that it happening is that it keeps me hanging onto false hope.
