Really upside down #2

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Thanks Bill. You're right about me lying, too. I didn't think of it that way, but it certainly puts me in my place.

I am having such a difficult time detaching. We went through a 2 week period where we were talking more regularly and it felt good to me, but I still have expectations. I get a glimpse of something and I want to rush the end.

I feel so....stuck. Stuck in my house that I don't think I can sell, stuck doing all the improvements to get it ready if I do try to sell.

I need some help to figure out how to detach. Are there steps, or something like that I can take to further that process?

One important question I keep forgetting to ask: Would it be bad to say something like "I'm making efforts to change what got us here so we can have what we need going forward. This includes doing things that are hard because I can get hurt. I don't feel you are meeting me halfway, though, because you still can't tell me things." This is based on the fact that W tells me she still can't tell me things. It drives me up a wall that I have made all the effort and she is just doing whatever she wants and I have to live with it.