WAW and OM

[rpierson10]

Thanks Everhope....I think I might have screwed up big time this weekend though. She came to pick up our son on Saturday and things were going okay. Then I asked to confirm that she could watch our son on Tues/Thurs nights this next week like she told me she could. She said she couldn't on Thurs because she was going back to the town where OM lives (he plays softball on Thurs nights). I told her that she had told me she could watch him though. She then said "I'm not his babysitter, I'm his mom." That sent me over the edge and I let loose on her. I told her that our son wasn't her #1 priority and that she cared about OM and herself more than our son. These are all true things that I have been feeling and probably would have come out sooner than later but unfortunately I did it in front of our son. That's the part that I feel terrible about.

We did calm down and rationally talk about somethings. She told me (for the first time) that she felt ignored by me after our son was born. Well hello....if I would have known that I would have attempted to fix things. In her mind, nothing we could have done together would have made things work.

So after yesterday her mind is even more made up. Right now, based on others close to her that I've talked with, the only one supporting her right now is OM. That's gotta be hard on her. I don't know if she will ever come around or not.

In the mean time, I guess I have to apologize and try and make it up to her. I don't know what that will look like or what I will do but I have to try. I know that I don't want to bring up any R or D talks at all. Let her lead the way in that regard.