brokenhearted, I am so sorry to see you here. Sadly, not many of us move to piecing. Its a hard road, and I hate to see you on it.

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STBXH thinks we can have this all wrapped up nice and neat in 2-3 sessions and have our D finalized by Oct


First of all, I am glad to hear that you are at least in mediation. That's always better. We have had 2 sessions already. The first one (an hour) was an introduction to divorce, and we were given a ton of homework (paperwork, financials, parenting plan, etc). Our atty says the more work we do, the faster/cheaper it is. Our second session (much longer, 2+ hours), she went over our paperwork and started drafting the decree up (custody, support, all that jazz). We will meet again and probably file after that. So, yes, if you are on good terms and come to the table with most of it agreed upon, its easier. In Missouri, once we officially file, it'll be over in 30 days after that. So, sigh...October might sound about right. So fast!

I won't lie. Its a very odd situation, sitting there, discussing divorce. I got upset a bit with the atty when she said we were considered a 'normal' family, with no kids brought into the marriage (from previous R's, etc). I don't feel normal. She didn't mean anything by it.

Hello, my friends: tal, gypsy, nocode, sallym. Who did I forget?

Journaling:

Yes, one year ago today, I reported to work. Hadn't slept the entire night. Sat in a chair on the patio, in shock, all night long. I didn't cry for 3 more days after H confessed to me. I was a walking shell, empty. Surviving on 1/2 a granola bar and way too much Diet Coke all day long. Horrible, awful. I get sick thinking about how much pain I was in.

The anniversary didn't catch my thoughts much at all yesterday. I am really feeling so free these days, and I realized its because I don't have to worry about trusting H. Bottom line, I don't trust him, and I am ok with that right now. He doesn't want to be trusted, not ready for anything. I am so grateful for the days now, summer time with the girls, no worries, peace with H. A good place for me.