Hi di- I just wanted to give you a quick post...I have been so busy and will be again today.
I can only imagine how rough things have been for you...but even though it is incredibly hard, you still have to stop pushing things...it only hurts you and it will give your H more justification for whatever he does.
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I still don't know what the separation is going to be like, I don't know how to do this. I wish I hadn't forced the meeting---because now I have the vision of him without his ring on in my head. But, this is how we get through it all................ or at least I do..............make the mistake, regret it, learn from it, do a little better................
Now you have more of these kinds of thoughts swirling around in your H and it hurts. IMO, you need to detach a lot more. Give him his space and try not question what he does. You have let him know you love him time and time again but it doesn't work. Remember if something doesn't work, try something else.
Whenever I used to feel myself start to get worked up about things I would just take a deep breath and repeat "Let it go" over and over again. Most (not all) of the time it helped me stop from picking up the phone or doing something else I would later regret...and each time I didn't react, I would feel a little stronger...a little more in control. Try it and if it doesn't work, find something else that does work for you.
