Is W in MLC

[yenko69]

Well D11 just left to go back to my parents house. I gave her the phone to call W, but did not talk to W today. Good and bad I suppose, I just keep the bigger picture in mind.

The one thing I have not wrote on here is about an EA affair. W told me that she was starting to have feelings for someone else. They used to date and he broke her heart. It started because W started to confide in him and seek his advice. I thought it was a done issue since he had not called the house. Started to again this week.

the OP
and the pull away seems to be very powerful
they have to go and follow it it seems real to them

I can see the truth with this. She has pulled back from me more since W told me about it. That is kind of hard to fight. Although I fight for myself therefore my marriage.

I did have what an alcoholic would call an awakening this morning. Seems like a lot of things that have been mulling around in my head came together.

When she said she could not see the changes that I started to do eight months ago, I can see why. I think that they were more superficial then the ones I have been making the last couple months. I thought I was changing, but not really. I just fooled myself into thinking so. Although I "did" some things it was not me that really changed all that much.

I have found more inner peace now and I think it does show. That is probably the biggest. The little things are also helping.

I do think that I do need to have a talk with W. Not so much about the R, but what was going on with me for a long time. Longer then I thought until today. I have written her a couple letters and have got good responses from them. Now talking about my emotions some is a huge step. It is a complete 180 for me since I had shut her out emotionally. That is one of those things that depends on her mood. This is something I need to do to move forward in my own life.