1st thank you all for showing me the way back to calm, kinda lost it for a day or so, all of your words gave me comfort and saneness. As you all know assumption is my WORST problem that I work on everyday somedays are better than others, friday was not a good day. I let too many things pile up on me and had a melt down, better here than on the phone to W.
Abit of background real quick, with W leaving I knew it was only a matter of time before I couldn't afford the house. Well friday the realization hit me in the face I called the bank and with W not living here they would only take into account my income, well mine is not enough to warrant a forebearance therefore the security is not there and they can't do a thing for me to hold onto the house. On top of knowing I haven't been able to make a CC payment in about 6 months I have put all my money towards the mortgage. So with that and W being dark & then D17's comment I lost it and went MIA.
Okay, this morning I went to the post office to pick up the letter, well in 1 way it was good and in 1 way it was bad. The good it was not divorce papers, the bad 1 of the Creditors is suing us for the outstanding balance and have 30 days to respond or they will continue litigation. Well gang I blew through my savings having to pay for everyhing for the last 9 months since W had made the decision to save all of 'her' money so that she could move out. Plain and simple I ain't got it let alone next months mortgage pymnt. I am sure there will be more now coming in the mail. Can't wait to make this phone call to W ought to go over real well.
So that's why I lost it, thank-you my friends for grounding me again with your assessments and kind words.
Mike thanks again for taking time out of your day with your family and D to check up on me...