Okay...you can read my complete sitch on my other threads. I have decided TODAY that I will keep myself honest with LRT by committing myself to keeping a daily blog of everything that does or does not happen with H. I am hoping this will keep me on the right track as the longest I've made it using LRT is 48 hours.
Soooooooo...today is a good day. H called on his way home from work...made idle chit chat about his job for about 15 minutes. I mention to him that I saw a picture of him in some of the material his work uses for marketing. I tell him he looks good...he says "no...I look like I'm losing my hair". I say "you are far to critical of yourself". He says "like someone else I know" (meaning me...I have awful self esteem which ruined our sex life) I say "if you are referring to me...not anymore". He says "oh now you know you are hot?" I say.."no, but I'm passable with a push up bra and some make-up". He says " you don't need a push up bra to be hot". I think these comments are good?? Anyway, he asks to talk to D. I gave D the phone and walked upstairs so that I wouldn't be let down when he didn't ask to talk to me again. About five minutes later, the phone rings again, I pick it up and H is on the line. He asks me a question about his Mom and then the subject of our recent lovemaking session comes up. I intimate that I would like to have a repeat performance someday and he makes reference to "preparing himself" in the future (if you know what I mean) so it can last as long as possible. I make a few more comments so he knows I'm serious and end the call with.."okay well I will let you go...have a great day and I'll talk to you soon".
Oh how I wanted to talk to him longer, but I don't want to push him away. I love him more than he'll ever know and I vow to be a different person in the future..not just for him, but for me.
What will tomorrow bring???? Something good, I hope
