Dawn, Here's the link to the Hedge of Thorns prayer - link .
I think that as you keep praying, reading the Bible and other Biblical-based material, you will draw closer to God and will know when He speaks to you (and know what it is He is saying to you). Have you considered checking out http://www.rejoiceministries.org and subscribing to the Charlyne Cares newsletters?
I think it's wonderful that you are able to survive financially without your H. I think this is important since it will take pressure off him now when he's so vulnerable to pressure and facing difficulty while in MLC.
From what you are saying, it seems to me that your H is confused, and that is a good thing. He doesn't seem ready to leave you. Leverage that as best as you can. The contact allows him to see your changes and gives him and you the chance to see that the changes are permanent.
