You think that's hot, Fig. You should see when I part the rush hour traffic to let my people go! Now that's hot. Where the heck did I put those meds? I'm supposed to take two before bedtime. Oh no, I hope I didn't flush them with the wine. Goodnight all.
Today for some reason, probably too much time on my hands, I spent some time thinking back through the last seven years. OMG did I live through a horrible, horrible time! I even ask myself "how the heck did you live like that?" Sometimes I forget because I'm so busy trying to go forward, but sometimes the pain jumps up and bites you in the ass! I'm OK, but it kind of knocked me for a loop when I went over that stuff. I guess I lived it because I had to, that's it. It was either tear my family apart or hang in there with every bit of strength I had. I did that, it didn't work and now it's on to the next step of my life, whatever that will be. I know the first year of separation is just getting through and setting the stage for something better. I'll just keep on doing what I'm doing and pray I'm on the right track!
I think we both mourn the loss of our intact families. I think kids never recover 100%. We're going to be with these women forever because we are parents with them. There is no "out" here. That's just one more of the reasons they are so short sighted. It's ALL in DB and DR. So plain to us. I don't think either of us misses/will miss never being right, never having a spouse who would good naturedly laugh and accept our shortcomings, or women that are so tightly wound it would take a sledgehammer to get a 10 penny nail up.......
Their reasons for leaving the family, AND THAT'S WHAT THEIR DOING are just not good enough, but I think your W and mine are both miserable in their own skins, and that will never change, whether your wife tries the other end of the salad bar, or my wife pays smarmylawyerboss back in trade for my daughters Jeep.
I don't want to be alone, but do not look forward to dating. I look at match.com occassionally and my stomach hurts. Ugh! it may come to that though. Who knows.
I jsut read your post to me after I wrote to you. It's amazing similar. Hang in there. I think we're both two decent human beigs, and good stuff will eventually come our way again. I love the summer time, and we used to have great neighborhood parties and drink lots of beer and have a blast. I mourn that as well.
