Update.. this is weird... So yesterday I went a little dark, barely talked to H, I was annoyed that I had to sign My answer to his Petition, which btw my L rescheduled the appt, so I did not sign, just one more thing to look forward to I guess.. I was very busy getting ready for this private party at the boutique...well the party was GREAT... we had alot of fun and alot of wine....alot of wine...I didn't get home until 1:30 am, when I got home, H had left a few lights on (which is unusual, I never noticed it before, I usually have to fumble around for a light..) after contemplating sofa city or my comfy bed, i chose the bed..closet light on...to help me see??? As I get situation and reflect on the day, silent tears..., it was a long day, and I am sure the wine didn't help any...H lays his hand on my arm.... H is awake...H intiates (sp - too much wine..) ML... go figure... WTF... truly baffled over here.... H never asked about the meeting with L...as far as I know H thinks I signed the answer... what kind of sex was this??? Pity sex... guilt, not sure what to make of it.. and honestly, I was not in the mood for it but with regard to what I am working for it was warranted... you one thing I have learned is when loving some the wasy THEY WANT TO BE LOVED, sometimes you do things just to help them feel good, which is what I did..but in the same sense, I feel a little cheap this morning... a great time yeah, but was it the alcohol, the cold shoulder, or love...
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Me - 38 H-36 DD - 15 S- 19 Together -almost 18 years M - 16 The Bomb - May 24th 2008 Meeting with Michelle July 7, 2008 Status - I moved out Sept 2009
I was very busy getting ready for this private party at the boutique...well the party was GREAT... we had alot of fun and alot of wine....alot of wine...I didn't get home until 1:30 am, when I got home, H had left a few lights on (which is unusual, I never noticed it before, I usually have to fumble around for a light..) after contemplating sofa city or my comfy bed, i chose the bed..closet light on...to help me see??? As I get situation and reflect on the day, silent tears..., it was a long day, and I am sure the wine didn't help any...H lays his hand on my arm.... H is awake...H intiates (sp - too much wine..) ML... go figure... WTF... truly baffled over here.... H never asked about the meeting with L...as far as I know H thinks I signed the answer... what kind of sex was this??? Pity sex... guilt, not sure what to make of it.. and honestly, I was not in the mood for it but with regard to what I am working for it was warranted... you one thing I have learned is when loving some the wasy THEY WANT TO BE LOVED, sometimes you do things just to help them feel good, which is what I did..but in the same sense, I feel a little cheap this morning... a great time yeah, but was it the alcohol, the cold shoulder, or love...