Twerpled on the Head with a Magic Kumquat

[girlfromipanema]

I'm wondering if people who read my thread think, "just move on already. Give up. It's not worth it." Do I seem like the world's biggest idiot?

If we didn't have the added complexity of working together, I would definitely throw in the towel. I know most don't understand why I don't just "get a new job." I don't won't to throw away the last 8 1/2 years of my life... it's complicated.

Edited to add:
I guess I just need to figure out how to work with him and not allow it to affect me. Having to see him move on with his life, with another woman, have children... it seems too much to bear. To have to witness that on a daily basis. I have to figure out how to do it. That's what's holding me back. I might see a lawyer next week... I just cannot go on like this anymore.

Thanks ti all of you for being supportive. It's impossible to convey how much it means to me.