You are right things are no different today then they were on July 3rd, I am no closer to my goal if anything a bit further away IMO.
Well, let's put this as gently as I can........
Your opinion is wrong. In fact, just you expressing that opinion tells me exactly where your head is at.
Self doubt is a bitch, it will take everything in your life and turn it upside down. You have to not be afraid to believe my friend.
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I was shaking cause I was scared of the hurt that it would cause me but I let go and gave the most important thing I could 'me' with no strings attached even though in my mind it would kill me and probably meant nothing to her other than a test, I kept the strings to me. I thought I was man enough to handle it and take it for what it was worth, but I was wrong. It wasn't the act that hurt so much it was her comment of she didn't regret doing it, that's what hurt. I guess God got even for all the 1 night stands I did as a young man, what goes around comes around.
Again, you are trying to figure out why it happened and you have to stop. It happened because it was part of a bigger plan.One that maybe will get you closer to your goal. It is amazing the difference we can make simply by adjusting our attitudes. If we keep things in a positive light, we tend to have better days and good things tend to happen. ie: When you interact with your wife and you are able to simply stay positive and speak from your heart, you get a positive result.
You and I spoke of being manly, of how hard it can be at times to open yourself up and feel. There is a book that my cousin gave me that I am going to recommend to you. If nothing else read the first chapter as it was all it took for me to understand what I needed to do.
The book is called- "Why bad things happen to good people" written by Harold Kushner. Pick it up.........
Brian, you have to decide what direction you want to go, no one else here or anywhere else can tell you what to do or how to feel. That is the one thing that we have control over, so you have to pick yourself up and find the strength to change your direction. It's as simple as that......
