SG, thanks for the support. Yep, have read both books. Its funny, even though I had forgot about the stop thought tech, I have been doing it lately. Every day I go for a 5-6 mile hike in the woods to clear my mind. Whenever STBX or the D enters my mind, I start to laugh and tell myself that I really am obsessing. Usually I can then make it most of the way without anymore thoughts.
I can see that this is just going to take time. I am in a significantly better place today than when D-Day hit. It was all I could do just to breathe for two weeks after hearing of the A. Now I am getting out and making friends and enjoying most of my life. I still cant get past wanting him to R though. This is the hardest to let go of, knowing that the M is over and I have to move on w/o him. After everything he has done to me in the last 2 years, you would think it would be easy to say "Screw Him" but I cant just yet. I imagine, just like everything else I have come to understand, that this too will come when the time is right.
Mediation starts next week and STBX thinks we can have our agreement ironed out in 2-3 sessions. That sounds pretty quick to me. He seems to think that everything will be final by the begining of Oct. It kind of scares me that it really could be that quick. For those of you who have been through the process, does that sound right?
Broken Hearted ------------------ Me - 36 H - 37 S - 8 Married - 1992 ILYNILWY - August 2007 Moved Out - March 2008 OW Revieled - May 28, 2008 Filed for D - July 2, 2008
