Hi Kat and Karen, don't worry about me I'm fine. I've been trying to read some of everyones post, H4H, Kat, Karen Sara(starshyne), Whatdidido, happycamper, lwb (I know you moved post lwb), etc. but its difficult to see so many people struggling. Hard to see all the crap everyone here is going through. I'm trying to keep a positive attitude
I'm trying to keep busy, W was going to stop by tonight and go over her demands (what she wants in the D) she told me she had to work so we will do it tomorrrow morning.
W told neighbor that I'm not talking to her, neighbor said "what did you expect" It's true, I'm not talking to W, if she starts in on one of her talks (she is a chatty person), I cut her short and tell her to get to the point. I like talkative people (women) but I cannot stand it from my W anymore, W wants to be all friendly and I'm strictly business at this point.
Neighbor, who sees W when I'm at work says W is having a difficult time with me not talking to her, with giving up the house that we both worked so hard to build into a home. Says W is getting along better with the kids (W even made this comment to me). I don't care, You all know my stand, I'm the worse DBer here because I cannot forgive W for what she did. I can never look at my W again like before, to me she has been.... I don't know the exact word to use: tarnished, blemished, tainted. etc. It's the stubborn German in me, my W crossed a line that there is no turning back from - sorry everyone I'm not a good example for people to follow
I'm not doing much right now, still playing softball, other than that I'm working on the house (finishing bathroom remodeling) working around the house, cleaning, decorating my way and taking care/playing with the kids.
I've got to get the D behind me and work on my anger, before I can fully move on with my life. It should get easier when W isn't around everyday.
I appreciate everyone looking in on me, and I truley wish you all didn't have to go through what you are going through. This experience has been the most painful thing I have ever had to deal with.
M45 W41 M10 3/4 years D9, D6, D6, S5 OM confirmed 12/07 merry christmas to me WAM (Walk Away Mom) 05/31/08 Date I'll forgive W for A = never
