Thanks my computer is so on the fritz... I thought my post to Frank didnt even go thru.... I miss COG he always knew how to read between the lines and see thru my emotional "babble" and say something to bring me back to reality! You did it though... THanX~
You POV really helped me... yes there is still work to do and this is so new to me it is hard to just let go at times and enjoy the work I have done..
It is always there.. underneath the surface...
he used to let me down so much... its hard to believe sometimes he wont again. I have let myself be vulnerable and really let him in and he is has done that too now ....
Everything you said makes sense... I always love the Male POV~ it seems more rational.... No offense ladies... Anyway... yeah a year ago was ugly and NO~ he couldnt have told me the truth... he knew I loved him but I still believed he was mostly ruled by his "little head" and not his heart....
he always loved me but just never let me in...
Thanks for reminding me and for being Happy for me... it means so much to me.. really.
It is scary you know honey... I have worked my a** off and hopefully one day that little voice that says dont trust your instincts will not let me doubt myself.
COG , would tell me to post to MICHELLE and I never did ... I never felt a success til just amonth ago really and even now it sometimes doesnt seem real. I mean we get along , we really do and he talks to me not at me... he tells me what he is thinking he says please and thank you and he mostly doesnt take me for granted anymore.. IT is a blessing and at the same time it is all to beautiful for me to fully grasp yet....
Thanks again love... All my best to you... I feel so much better... ~Ali
