Getting Off the Rollercoaster!

[addie]

Kelly Jo - you're right. H has made his choices. It was even HIS choice when he was in the midst of the PA that I move back to my hometown with S and now he's claiming he's alone. I've been thinking about his constant "I'm lonely". It's all part of the depression which he doesn't know how to express any other way.

H called this afternoon and said he had a bit of a hangover this morning. I guess that's what happens when you're hanging out with 20 yr olds! He told me he's lost some weight and doesn't know why. I jokingly said that he obviously misses my cooking and he agreed. He told me that I'm a very decent person, that there are many women that aren't decent and that I'm very loyal. I thanked him for saying those nice things about me. We had a pleasant conversation - I'm glad I was able to fake it because that's certainly not what I've been feeling.