Sue you are going to be ok. It may not seem like it right now but you will. If you don't believe me take a look at the people over on Surviving. It is like one great big party over there!
Seriously, I have my down days too, where I so miss my husband and wish he was here. Right now, though I am lonely I wouldn't be good for anyone else. I have to get really comfortable in my own skin again. That make take a while. I won't jump into it, maybe just stick my big toe in and test out the waters. When I get there I hope to say "come on in, the waters fine". Hugs
kat
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory