I am doing alright. You I feel like when I am with other people now adays, I am back to myself. My mom commented that I dont' seem nearly as stressed. But honestly, when I am all alone at night I most often cry myself to sleep. I remember when the only other boyfriend I had before H cheated on me and we broke up, I cried myself to sleep for 2 solid months. So I think it will be awhile since marriage was so much more than just a boyfriend relationship. Even though my H is a mean person, I still really miss the nice guy that I knew. I wish I had a chance to say goodbye to him before he turned into this other person.

I am still working on the house. I am really trying to turn it into mine and not ours. It has been fun. And....I am going to Disney on Sunday and will be gone for a week. I really think this trip is the best thing I can do for myself right now.

Thanks for checking on me.

Me-31 H-38
M: 5 yrs T: 7 yrs
No kids
Went to Prostitutes 10-1-06
Found out about OW 12-24-07
Bomb on EA/PA: 1-2-08
OW ended it with H "for good" 3-8-08
OW is back 4-19-08
H and OW tell me that they are in love 5-19-08
Filed for divorce 6-5-08
Divorced 7-2-08