Survival, your right, it doesnt matter why. Heck, I dont have any reasons why he has done most of the things he has done for the last year.
Slowly I have been learning to do things that are just for me. I take a 5 mile walk through the woods everyday and try to focus on the now instead of the negative energy that this D is bringing. It helps me to get more grounded and I'm getting great legs to boot!
The NC is definately a must for me. Even when I slip a little, I get dragged back in to looking for a responce from him. I can not allow him to get that much of my energy. It needs to be focused on me. After 19 years of always sharing my life with him, this is absolutely the hardest part, just letting him go and moving on. Thanks again for your responce.
Broken Hearted ------------------ Me - 36 H - 37 S - 8 Married - 1992 ILYNILWY - August 2007 Moved Out - March 2008 OW Revieled - May 28, 2008 Filed for D - July 2, 2008
