Not quite sure why you're so anti therapy but given the past you keep sharing (hitting, abuse, drinking) it might be a positive step for you.....

or you could continue on in the denial you're in.

....Understand, that I can't, not be what I am
I'm not the milk, and Cheerios in your spoon
~ Avril Lavigne ~
..."Nobody's Fool"...

me=ok /D'd since 7/07
D=ok