I am feeling like I felt the first few weeks after we S when I knew H was with OW. I feel very responsible for sending H right back into Replay. When H moved back at the end of May after OR ended, my anger at everything that's happened started to surface and this caused H to make contact via email with OW again. When I learned of this and I confronted him (calmly) but he lied, I built a wall around myself for fear of getting hurt again, especially since I was moving away. H saw this as rejection and in his very fragile state went right back into Replay.
Last night I called H which I've only done one other time since I moved and I tried to be a lot more pleasant. He told me he was having a couple of guys over (ages 20-21) who he met in a course he was taking but he neglected to tell me there would also be young females there and possibly OW - he was having a party at our place. Everyone else aside from H would be between 20-25 years old. I was pretty supportive and told him to have a good time. Again, he told me he's very lonely - this has come up in every email and phone call. I'm just so afraid he's going to do other things he'll regret because he feels so alone.
Me47 H46 S13 M16 Piecing since May/09
"Life is 10% what happens to us and 90% how we react to it." Lou Holtz
