New to this forum and need help..

[tmarie]

Well the homecoming was not very eventful... I am feeling low today... He came home and made chit chat...When it was time for bed, he layed for a bit then left to watch tv...unwinding I suppose.. He never returned.. slept on the sofa... He asked me this morning what I had going on... I told him about my nail appt, and that I had a meeting w/my attorney this afternoon, he didn't say anything, but asked if I was coming to the office, I said no, I was really busy prepping for my party tonight at the boutique, he said oh, well I'll see you after work, I said.. "ummmm no... I will be late, not sure when I am coming home..." I am almost ready to just go to the city afterwards and spend the night some place else....I am not doing good today, I don't even think I can look at him... I just feel so uncomfortable all the time, I am doing all I can, and I know its working but, I still wonder where he is at in his mind...no mention of what he told his parents...and I almost asked this morning, I caught myself and shut my mouth....
It raining here and maybe that is part of my problem... one of those days where you curl up with a good book. I cried for the first time since we saw Michele... I thought I was all cried out...guess not..

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