Left the Rollercoaster - Now what???

[No Longer BH]

Thanks AO for the reply. I dont think it a money thing. In fact, STBX has been claiming that he doesnt care about money. Although he spends it like its never going to run out. Every week since we have been seperated he has recieved NSF in his personal spending account.

I am still just amazed that I am here. I have not accecpted that it is over yet. I know I should, but my heart just is not ready to let go. I find myself swinging from pure hatred of this person he has become to feeling so sad at losing the life I had. I do not respect him, heck I dont even like him at this point. My IC has opened my eyes up to how he was treating me in my marriage. So why is it so hard to just let them go??? (I do know the answer to that, just wish it was easier).

He is making it more difficult to detach with all of the emails he keeps sending. Although, I am not expecting any this weekend because he has S for visitation. Most of them are emails that really dont mean anything. Wanted to know why mail had stop coming to the house - how about YOU call and figure it out. Wanted to recheck for a 3rd time the dates on some doc appointments for S that are 3 weeks away - have already told you over and over again. Wanted to discuss S tummy ache - um, hello, he's not in the hospital. It was just a tummy ache and you already talked to S so you know he is fine. Wanted to discuss some bills when Sunday night is the scheduled night to talk about bills that we owe together. I just dont get it!

On top of that he is playing little stupid games as well. I had asked him to return a necklace that I forgot to pack when I left. He gave me the pendant but not the chain. Talk about your passive aggressive behavior. How childish is that! I havent decided if it is even worth it to ask for the chain. He prob gave it to OW.

Can anyone explain why he is acting this way? He is the one who wanted out, not me! I'm just giving him what he wants. Why so much anger???