Kelly Jo The Wifey new thread.

[Neilh23]

I haven't felt any anger, only grief. I did this. I caused this. I hurt him. I'm the responsible party.

Maybe if I could get angry I wouldn't feel so sad.

My son is even upset with me for just letting his dad do whatever he wants and not sticking up for myself. (His words.) I don't know what that means. I'm not all at fault here, sure, but I carry a pretty wide margin of the problems. What do I have to stick up for but out M.

I think I just need to go away some where and think. Maybe someplace with music. I like music - and dancing. H already said no to the fair. No to motorcycle ride with me. (He'll let me know when he wants me to go.) So, I think I will have to just go myself and find some place with music.

first of all...
stop feeling like it was all your fault. it wasn't. you know it. now please believe it.....

2nd of all....."he'll let you know when he wants me to go?" WTF is that? you are an adult....right? you go where you choose....right? so go to the fair...walk around...enjoy the smells, the people...the food. Do it for yourself. Don't ever let him tell you what you can and cannot do.....regardless of his occupation.

Kjo.....you are doing well...really.....but stop thinking like this....