Thanks, Val. I just posted. Here's the link:
http://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=1523716&page=1#Post1523716

It's under, "Why does God think I can Handle Sooooo Much?"

Hopefully someone can give me that boost of hopefulness (or reality check) I need. I really am starting to feel like he will never return.

I don't want a D, but I don' want my M the way it was, either.