You are one angry individual. Perhaps that is part of the problem with these boards. They compensate for misdirected anger to someone else. Hoosier you think counseling is so great you go. You see none of it matters. Sure identify problems of my past. I already wresteled those demons. I lived them. I saw them. I buried them. I rose myself above that level.
Thanks so much for building me up. I already told you my mornings were rough.
Last night I was having dreams of my wife. Nothing special. She was with me. She was standing next to me being loving. Kind of cuddling. Then her cell phone went off. She didn't answer it. Looked at it. Put on her jacket and left.
I kept waking up. Rolling over and she wasn't there.
You know one of the reasons I think I point out all the stupid crap my wife does is to prove I'm not the crazy one. Am I pointing fingers or just venting. Some seem to think I'm pointing fingers.
I already said I was the battered husband. I'm still getting battered. Maybe the reason I fight back so hard against people is because I am the battered husband. I'm a battered man and I'm trying to protect myself from anymore injury and harm.
Your last post could have inflicted harm if I was in the state of mind I was in a month ago. No I don't choose to be disrepectful to you. I don't choose to ignore you. If you read your post it has a hot tone feeling. I didn't really appreciate it. It wasn't helpful. It was mean spirited.
Look within... constantly looking within. I think I turned myself inside out at least a hundred times.
Some of my minor changes: I make the bed. I do the laundry. I even do the wifes laundry, mostly folding clothes. I am neator person. Wife always said I was a slob. I clean up after myself more. I believe I am kinder to people at work. I used to snap at people at work all the time. I used to snap at people in general because I just could not tolerate stupidity.
You see I'm a computer/network tech basically. I constantly deal with negative and people's non understanding of their use. Only problem is everyone thinks I know everything and I should be able to fix their computer problems. When they will not even take the time and try to research the problem themselves. Then you give people advice and they go and do something totally different then they come back to you, blame you, and ask you to fix it.
Major change: Quit drinking. I spend more time with the kids. One because there is no other choice but too. I'm not focusing on doing home improvements. The house is basically done. Yes there are still things to do but I don't have any energy for them. It is an endurance. You are never done with home improvements.
I don't yell at my kids. I'm stern. I tell once, then I take action. I developed a system at home. If you are acting in poor behavior you get told about it once. Then if you do it again you stand on the square. I have a carpet in the great room that is 8 x 10 and it has 12 squares on it. Each one stands in the corner of the carpet. They hate it. It's only for a couple of minutes. If they continue the behavior I get out the guitar and sing them a silly song as to not act the way they were acting. C chord, I will not hit my brother. D chord, I will not pull my sisters hair. You get the point.
I am developing an extreme amount of patience in dealing with my wife.
