It just seems that I should be able to do this. I thought of the meds even though I dread them because I can't seem to help myself when I see him. The minute he gets home the happy, confident, ready to DB my ass off person caves.
I am going to make a list of the DB things that I am going to stick to, that I HAVE to stick to. I HAVE to or I really will lose him.
1.Accept that I can't change this or make it just go away. I have no power. 2.No more r talk and more patience. 3.Still be available, but let him initiate. 4.GAL. 5.Act as if. 6.Keep myself healthy. 7.Be content in my own home. 8.Spend time on my schoolwork and preparing for the GMAT. 9.Connect with my friends. 10.Never take my h for granted - always be grateful. 11.Be thankful for little things.
Now if I could just tattoo these on my brain and make them happen.
Me 45, H 46, S 23, M 26, Together 30, Bomb 6-2-08, S 6-19-08; H left 12-29-08. H home 12-09, Still MLC in 2012! Me- I have my big girl panties on. Bring it.