July 15th came and went but it was significant in that it was the 2 year mark that X moved out. My first post after returning to the boards was not for another 5 weeks and this is what I wrote:
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That being said, from my perspective I believe the following from the Bible:
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And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose. Romans 8:28
To me, this tells me that EVEN this situation will work out to glorify God, whether or not my marriage heals.
Therefore, I am excited to see what this situation will look like 3 months, 6 months, 1 year, 2 years etc, down the road, thus, the journey continues. (emphasis added)
My current mindset: To Work on Me AND as strange as it seems, leave the door open for reconciliation. My journey, in how I became a Christian and how W and I got together leads me to believe that there is still the possibility of a miraculous reconciliation waiting to happen. At this point, though I will be working on me, I intend to wait until God clearly tells me it is time to Move On before I allow myself to start to pursue any other relationship. (This is her second act of adultery that I am aware of and I believe that I am free to pursue other relationships BUT I choose to wait on the Lord- I know I will know when it is time to move on).
What is next?: Heavy duty DBing and a deep examination of the areas in which I need to grow. A moving forwards with my life in all areas except romance.
Looking back at my comments from nearly two years ago, I see that healing has been and continues to take place, God still gets the glory and I am just about ready for whatever and whomever God might bring into my life. Life is good!
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