I'm glad that the thought has crossed your mind as to the possibility of your H using ML to keep you from moving on. It seems an impossibly devious way to treat someone that you're suppose to love, but I truly believe that many WAS do just this very thing.
Since they can't make up their mind what they want, they don't want the LBS possibly making up their mind to move on..and what better way to keep the LBS from moving on than playing with their heart strings. Unless you've told your H that ML is just physical for you, he knows that there are alot of emotions that you put into it. Thus...he keeps you 'tied' to him in an emotional way, and less likely to think about moving on yourself.
It's truly your own instinct/intuition that will have to guide you FA, but I am happy that you've considered this a strong possibility, and that you will want to think long and hard about the meaning/consequences of continuing a physical relationship with him while he plays musical beds.
I think it's FANTASTIC that you were able to reach out for help and NOT contact H or OW!! I'm so proud of you. Take each day as it comes, each hour if you have to...and pretty soon it will become easier and easier to control that urge.
Women are angels. And when someone breaks our wings, we simply continue to fly...on a broomstick. We are flexible
