Two things, You are letting go of you R and L but not you’re M. That is for better or worse for ever and this is the worst, in fact its in a coma but not dead. Just let it lie dormant while you wait to rebuild a new R and L.
Secondly it was you who made me believe the pain my W is feeling as well. All of her little EAs and friends are her way of trying not to feel this pain. I am sure that you H is the same way. This does not accuse their behavior, however it allows us to understand that to a degree, accept, forgive and move on.
I am sorry that he has hurt you, but I think you know as i now do too, that you are collateral damage to his own pain. Our job is to not get lost in that. Our hurt is a side effect and not the main pain, that does not minimize what we feel, but we cannot solve all of this. Only they can heal themselves, because without that they will never have anything to give us.
Try to keep your chin up. You are battling the hardest thing that you face in your life, and although no one can tell you the out come, I will say you are putting up one hell of a fight, and you will look back proudly at the effort you have put in.
Me 27, W26 T-12 M-4 SEP 4/29/08 Holding 250 miles Awaiting Support Current
