Since mentioning moving forward with S agreement/D 2 weeks ago, H has not brought it up again. Although, he did say that he doesn't care what people say anymore - I think in reference to having paperwork in place - which is exactly what I told him when we spoke that day.
I'm still contacting H only if absolutely necessary. No real contact from him, except to talk to S6. I'm having birthday party for younger S who is turning 3 on Sunday. Because he asked, I let H know which friends will be there (the one he is fighting with will be out of town) - it sounds as if he plans on being there.
I emailed H the gift certificate, he emailed me back "Thanks!" blah blah blah. I'm pretty sure it's the first exclamation point I've gotten from him in over 2 years. Ha!
H emailed me to ask for some of kids documents. Said he's doing taxes and can write some things off. Really curious what he's putting down as his marital status. Sigh.
Emotionally, all is well with me. I think I have finally reached a place of acceptance (and do I dare even say peace?!) with myself and my sitch. I finally feel more aware of what I did wrong in the M and how I'm changing so it doesn't happen in my next R (with H or someone else). I guess it's been a gradual process, but I know for a long time, I only skimmed the surface of what was wrong with me without really putting in any effort to fix it. It's still something I'm working on, and I plan to practice my new R skills on H every chance I get.
