Don't sell yourself short, beautiful lady. Your husband's decision to go outside of your marriage has less to do with you and more to do with his lack of integrity, sel-fishness* (sel-whaleness!) and the advances of the new gf stroking his ego. You've still got it, hot stuff: http://audiojungle.net/item/wolf-whistle/136
I think I will begin compiling a list of your aha moments and epiphanies. One day I may be able to repackage those into a best-selling affirmation/daily meditation type book. And I'll take all the glory and credit. Everyone will think I'm a GENIUS! I'LL MAKE MILLIONS!!! Mwahahahaha!!
But, seriously, you come to these points of clarity that resonate so deeply with me. I'm sure many of your loyal readers will agree.
What are you doing to make your life more magnificent today?
Lots and lots of love, R
*I went back and forth on how to spell 'selfish' in this context. I think my friend's dad thought the word was sel-fish, not understanding the root being "self". I'll have to explain to others in a separate post some other time. ;-)
M: 37 H: 36 Married: Aug 13, 2004 Decision to Divorce: July 20, 2008 Reconciled: September 2008 Current: Ambivalence