Amy in your last post I guess I'm finding some things in it difficult to comprehend at the moment.
"But know that God WILL let you do just that. And you will get nowhere fast. So it's your call Phil."
Kind of sounds like you are telling me to look back to go forward. Idle... Like keep the car just running.
God will let me do what???? I'm confused here...
However this I understand throughly. "This Hell is shaping me."
That's exactly what I'm telling you. To go forward, I think you will first have to go back. Many of us do. To understand how we contributed to the mess we're in. Much of the time, the answers are in our childhood because that's where we were shaped.
We here on the board have seen things in you that you do not see in yourself. Obstinance, immaturity, general dysfunction (don't be offended. Everyone one of us can represent the same). Anyway in my opinion the roots of those things were exposed when I asked you about your parents...I think you will follow a similar path that many of us followed in that we first had to go back in order to understand why we became the person that eventually ended up HERE. Am I making sense?
You however, do not HAVE to do, go or face anything. God isn't going to make you. But if you seek - if you choose to look for the root. He will expose it.
And you will begin to become the man He intends for you to be.
