I think I handled her well yesterday. I could have very easily snapped back at her at the game. I just asked her to knock it off. Her comments really didn't affect me. I mean I looked over at her and I just felt sorry for her. There is nothing I can do to help her anymore.
Then just now I had an epiphany.
There is nothing I can do to help her anymore. But there is. I can stop making it worse.
You know I looked over at her and I said she isn't my wife. She is someone else. I don't love the person she is now. I loved the woman before this new person came before the aliens came and go her. Is she really different?
She never really grew up. She isn't different she just got worse and she took it to a different level.
Amy in your last post I guess I'm finding some things in it difficult to comprehend at the moment.
"But know that God WILL let you do just that. And you will get nowhere fast. So it's your call Phil."
Kind of sounds like you are telling me to look back to go forward. Idle... Like keep the car just running.
God will let me do what???? I'm confused here...
However this I understand throughly. "This Hell is shaping me."
Maybe what you said here gave me the epipthany. What am I going to do on my part?
Let her go... I do believe I have. I didn't feed into her drama yesterday. I walked my family to the car. I didn't try to hug, kiss, or touch my wife. As we were walking up the walk and I was carrying my son. I was smiling. A woman sitting by the walk smiled at me and said Hello. I talked to her at the last game. Now normally I would not have even looked in a direction of another woman in the presence of my wife, because my wife would accuse me of looking at an attractive woman.
Yes that's right I wasn't aloud to do that either.
I have a job interview today. I do not even want to go. Because I just do not want to deal with rejection.
The mountain Amy doesn't seem as high, but I would still rather bore a hole through it to get to the other side. I think it would be more cost affective.
It isn't that impossible. I'm starting to think I'm better off without her.
