Ready to GAL...Drop the Rope...Detach..2...

[ddstartingover]

Today I have questions in my mind that I need to get out so I can let it go (or try to), and get back to being STRONG.

How can a well educated man (I know he's not thinking, but)think that he just so happened to take a temporary position at a company that just so happened to be the place where his "sole mate" worked---and if not sole mate, someone he's willing to give it ALL up for. Someone who is already married herself with 2 kids..........Now what kind of married woman with two kids actively pursues a married man with 3??? Why would someone be interested in someone like that. Since she's H's age, maybe she's in MLC too????

Now that she's divorced her H and bought her own house, does she expect him to move? H has already made it quite clear he does not want to lose time with his kids. Moving 80 miles away-----has to be less ideal for the "familly man." Does he really want to raise someone else's kids?? If he thinks he'll move them all here to have us all close----boy will he be wrong!

Now onto the fact that he still will not admit IT to me. How can he continue to wear his wedding ring, sleep in our house, portray to our kids and the rest of the world that he's such a wonderful person, with no flaws, just needs time to "think?" Does he really think if he chooses HER that it won't be obvious that he's been lying to me for 2 years? Does he really think he can make whatever decision HE needs to make without coming clean to me? Well, of course he's wrong about that.

Now thinking this all out makes it so obvious that he is totally NUTS! CRAZY!! INSANE!! His mother sent him a letter in the mail. He's even avoiding opening IT! Sure wish this was like Harry Potter and it could open itself and her voice could SCREAM what I think it probably says.................

Now that I've got that off my chest, I am at least for now, planning to stand. I do not intend to confront H. His latest plan is that he'll move out tomorrow morning. The kids and I plan to be gone. I think I'll set an appt. with MC next week to discuss all of this. Just to get her input and take on things.

He e-mailed to me that I can have the kids this weekend, but if he could have a lunch or dinner with them, he would like that..........then he wants them Monday night. This is REALLY going to take some effort. Part of me thinks the more time he gets with his kids, the more we will realize what he will give up. The more time he spends with them and without me, he will "see" how incomplete the family is. The other part of me thinks I just want to keep them for myself.

OK, off to the shower. I have two friends taking me to lunch and shopping today, another one called and wants to take me to dinner. I guess back on the diet tomorrow!!! At least all of this is forcing me to GAL, and it is also forcing me to realize that I have some very very good friends out there!