Piecing Friends, I had a lapse with job stress last night. My supervisor is no longer with the agency, and the remaining staff await their fate.
I took my stress home last night, and had a hard time concentrating in dance class and being conversational with my W. She told me that it reminded her of much of our M, and that she was fearful that I would relapse back into old habits. She says that when I'm under chronic stress, that I'm distant, and she feels alone.
She mentioned these concerns in an email to me. I replied to her that dancing and poetry have provided greater balance in my life, and that even though there might be lapses, I didn't think a relapse into old patterns was likely.
I wrote a draft of a poem this morning about the experience of not being in control, and how to manage it gracefully.
I'm planning on joining my W for dancing tonight.
It was interesting to hear her perspective on past marital problems.
CL
CL 53 W 54 M 20 yrs. 03'-09' Separation + Old Patterns + GAL 10-14' Piecing
"The Master allows things to happen. She shapes events as they come."
