OK. Thanks, Sara. I am choosing to love my H and am choosing to work hard at our marriage. So, I guess if that is my choice, then I might as well stop looking back. I believe with Retrouvaille coming I am seeing how this is it and I am having last minute jitters......I either do it or I don't. I either go full fledge into repair mode, or I jump off the bus. I know there is no turning back ...maybe that's why I can't make love to H. Maybe I know that if I do, it is done FOR SURE with OM. Maybe that is one of my last things I am holding on to.
