I know what I should be doing (i.e. returning to H and giving him 100%) but right now I just don't know if that's what I 100% want and the feelings for OM just get muddled up in the mess somewhere - or maybe they are the big muddle in the mess, I don't know.
Hi Lost, glad to have another WAW here with us. There are a lot of us around the board, but we just have to find each other. In regard to what you posted to WDID above, it made me wonder if you could just go without seeing either one of the men (OM and your H) for a time, if it would help clear your head any better. I honestly think I know how confused you are. We have so much conflict going on inside of us about what is "right" and what we really "want"--that it is enough to drive us crazy! Plus, there is always that "risk" factor with D your H and chosing OM. So many times, it doesn't work out with OM after the couple actually marries. Plus, you have that "history" with your H and that plays a big part also. So, like I said, it is engouh to cause your mind to be muddled. This is probably something I shouldn't say b/c it doesn't really help you, but I read one time where most women that had affairs with partners other than the one they married, were much more passionate than their H. Isn't that ironic?
Well, please keep coming back to post. We need to find all the WAW's and pull together for support. I have a thread in Piecing Our Marriage Back Together if you want to come visit me.
Take care, Sandi
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!
