Help me Act AS IF, Part 7: The Separation

[newnamenewlife]

Thanks. I know I need to calm down-but the comment about "no, the first thing you do is have a child" really destroyed me, took it to a new level.

In general, during these 3 weeks since he left, I've been doing really well, feeling at peace at times, feeling able to forgive H and be friends with him, GALing like crazy. This episode, unfortunately, undid all that, at least for now.

Tomorrow is a new day and I know I am going to be OK in the long run. I just really can't believe the things my formerly wonderful, thoughtful and sweet H has allowed himself to say. He seems to feel GOOD when he says things that negate our whole M, too, like he's finally speaking the truth and he's proud of himself.

I wish I could write it all off as MLC/WAS crap, but it's so hard to do that because I've always respected him so much and thought he was so smart and perceptive (he used to think the same about me, but clearly not any more.) So part of me thinks that he must be right and that it's me who has misread everything.