Oh, sweetie, I'm so very sorry. Your husband is so wrapped up in his own need for freedom. I'm certain he feels guilt, but to minimze those feelings, he's creating a totally different history than the reality.

I wish I could say something or do something to help.

It's OK to feel the hate/anger, but don't let it consume you... it'll destroy you and you still have the ability to be happy. One day you will feel so much stronger than you do now. It's late, but if you're still in this state tomorrow, do something physical to get your mind off it. Take it moment by moment.

(((((((lmg))))))))

M: 37
H: 36
Married: Aug 13, 2004
Decision to Divorce: July 20, 2008
Reconciled: September 2008
Current: Ambivalence