You know what I could do?. Skip this upcoming vacation. Her M and SIL can take care of the boys for the week. I could stay here and party like a rock star, blow coin like a billionaire, trash the house like my kids, and pick up women like a Calvin Klein model. That would shake things up all right.
She just called and said the bank was looking for her corporate tax return. I said "do you remember the 20 times I asked you for those "lost" credit card statements? I won't do it until you get me that info and you know that? She said "well, weren't they due already?", "Yes, but I am not going to sign false documents, should I?" , "No". I asked her when she is going to get the info. She had the nerve to say I don't know. I am wrapping up projects prior to our vacation and she has the nerve to pull this crap. I am absolutely fuming. "My friends and C have told me to let you be responsible for your actions and this is what I get. It always, always becomes my problem. How fair is that? This is exactly why I have to monitor everything, because I am always responsible to fix it. This is why I get irriatated when you don't focus on your business. How can I support you in other things when you don't take care of your responsibilities? I can't because I end up cleaning up the mess."
We always end up in the same place, except this time. She agreed to go to a C when we get back from Cali. I told her it would take more than one visit. She acted cool to it. I asked wht is so wrong with seeing a C. She said it is degrading. What is up with that? I told you she had pride issues. I have been begging for this opportunity for a long time. We need a mediator to give us direction. I am expecting nothing but glad to have the chance.
I am tired and stressed and crabby but probably will go to Cali. I sometimes think of being a WAH but know that my difficulties with her would never end as she is the M of my boys. D would settle none of our problems. With younger kids involved my last statement is pretty universal. Both parents are still responsible for the kids and financing their lifestyles D or not. We are definitely making progress in how we relate to each other and hopefuuly the C will help us fully remove ourselves from this rut.
