You will soon have days that inspire and change you...But remember, YOU are the one to make those days happen...
Update...
Ok.. 180 and decided to GO to workout w/H.. came home made dinner...ate dinner, I jumped on pc.. talking to a friend (that aura of mystery again).. he left to drop somehting off to D14... he was gone waaayyy tooo long.. so I called and asked if he was ok.. He said he got a call from an overseas supplier and had to go to the office.. (OW perhaps...) no worries though..I said "ok.. Great!! See ya later - Bye!" acting - as-if... Decided a long hot bath would be great and it was... lounged around for a bit with a bottle of wine... H came home... decided to shower.. came to bed... Well I asked for a much needed massage, and he obliged... this used to be a prerequist to sex... but instead of turning that way I layed there and caressed him afterward...he loves that... that is what led to the ML session... very intimate, very special... things are definately looking to a new direction... he held me.. and my hand all night...
Woke up this morning.. and went to the office, accomplished alot before lunch . we had lunch together ran some errands. He called to tell me something ... not very important and nothing to do with anything but his cell phone... (weird.. just small talk) and thats where we are at today.. He is leaving town this evening and won't be back until Thursday... Time for D14 and I to have some girl time... I have already made plans for the weekend that do not include him...A girls weekend at a nice hotel.. facials and massages... OH YEAH!!
On an upnote...H asked me to attend a seminar for our business since he couldn't and noone else could go... hmmm with the pending D, kind of weird he would want me to go since I will not have a whole lot to do with the business once the D is final... maybe he is thinking about our future a bit....
One thing I am not doing is any type of smothering, I still keep a distance, not too much affection however, I did lean in for a kiss after lunch today... he didn't say no... but I keep it minimal even though I feel like hugging and kissing him all the time...No need to scare him...
Hope all are hanging in there...
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HOORAY for you! I like how you asked for something and he accepted it and did it good for you. You then gave something in return to fill his bucket, and it turned into something mutual for both of you PERFECT.
H inititated 1st contact of the day and it turned into lunch nothing heavy just 2 people enjoying each others company no pressure. The kiss afterwards doesn't sound like he pulled back so nothing ventured nothing gained, test and observe! Slow & steady wins the race. Sounds like a good weekend of GAL'ing with D14 enjoy that time it will be something treasured in coming years for both of you.
Nice of H to wsk you to go to the seminar did you accept?
I certainly understand wanting more, tough to keep it in check but if we can and it provides a ends to a means then alittle sacrifice now will possibly reap the benefits for the future.
Stay your path slow & easy, patience...
I'm proud of you and so happy things have been going well..
P.S. Yes once you have truly become detached it all starts coming together..
