I just read your thread and feel like we were with the same person. H is in law enforcement (seems like a lot of people with similar stories have spouses in law enforcement). Anyway, H admits I've changed, but thinks it's "too late". Says it wouldn't be fair to me for him to suggest there is any hope. It always feels like a dagger in my chest when he says things like that. At any rate, I have a question for you. Do you ever start to feel very angry at H and even begin to think "I DON'T EVEN WANT THIS GUY ANYMORE!"? I am really struggling with these thoughts. My mind goes from I love him so much to I cannot believe he did this to me. If you have those feelings how do you keep them in control when around H? I am asking because he is going to drop of daughter in a bit and is staying for dinner. Originally, I was happy about it, but now I'm pissed because he's over an hour late.
