Am I crazy or is he???

[Mojones]

When I asked him about his hobby he said that he is "not allowed to have a hobby." I had been very supportive so I asked him what he meant by that.He said that he falls out of love with everything fast. He has made so many comments that indicate that something is going on inside HIM but he implies that he still holds me responsible. I think he feels his depression comes from the relationship and the weight of the R and the affair but he has struggled with depression for quite some time....refuses help though. Says that he was told he doesn't need it.He has charmed two therapists and doesn't stick with it long enough to get into what is going on with him.
He has only gone out 2 times since being home in May. That is actually good for him. Both times he was home by 11:00 however one time I was out of town which obviously makes me nervous.He has stopped ALL communication on his cell and internet with anyone outside of work which also makes me suspicious because he used another phone to have the A.I keep my eyes open for signs of another phone, receipts exct. I looked in his wallet on a hunch a few weeks ago and found a number. I called it and a woman answered.The number was registered to Kentucky and we live in Mass...I did not confront him because I snooped and was torn by whether or not I should have done it. Instead I ripped the phone number up thinking..What is he going to do ask me if I took it?! This may be the reason for the grouchiness..he may have realized that it is gone? All of this seems obvious but like you said...I am trying to stay positive and give him the benefit of the doubt and not assume..you know the drill. Not turning my head to it but not jumping to conclusions either.
Pup, thanks for clarifying about letting go instead of giving up...what does that look like when your spouse lives with you? It is hard. Especially with his depression. I am trying to be supportive out of concern. It is even harder because he does not have the same concern over me and I am not good some days either.I just know rationally that I have to soldier on.